Hello friends! It’s the holiday season, and I am very happy about that. I get to go home tomorrow (if the weather cooperates) and I’m very happy about that.
However, there is a tiny voice in my head that likes to focus on one tiny, less-than-ideal part of my life instead of focusing on all of the wonderful things in my life. So this voice and I write poems about our feelings and then listen to jazz standards on YouTube for 2 hours to soothe ourselves. Because whatever is going on in your life, you can be sure someone else has already dealt with it and written and recorded a song about it.(Of course, I write songs about my own life, but I haven’t recorded any because it’s time-consuming and I lost the power cord to my MIDI keyboard. But last night I found the power cord in my teal ottoman, so tonight I’ll see if it works, and if so, that keyboard and I will be spending a lot of time together over break).
I must say, my problem is a good problem to have, so don’t worry about me. I have a friend in Ottumwa who might still have the same good problem, and if so, we can go out to lunch sometime next week and talk about the silly someones in our lives.
Anyways, the poem. Enjoy!
By Maggie McGinity
It’s a very selfish thing
What I’m doing
Just to keep myself safe.
I like to think it keeps you safe, too,
But are we better off safe?
I haven’t a clue.
I’ve laid myself down on the line
Too many times.
Back when I didn’t have a grain of rice
To light the loss of my life
It was fine
To break this
Time and time and time
I’ve gotten everything
And at the same time, nothing.
Am I one, or am I two?
Am I me, or am I you?
In moments of quiet certainty
I fear I only hear me
When my strength needs power staying,
I comfort myself in saying,
‘Everything will be fine.
Everything will be mine
One way or the other,’
And though there are many ways
And though there are many days
I don’t want another.
I am impatient
In the messages my heart has sent
But patient thus this far to date
What’s another three months to wait?
This inevitable thing which I now choose
Inevitable for me to lose?
I’ve never been good at saving myself.
I’d put me on the highest shelf.
These scary-sounding words are not.
I am a tangle of feelings and thought,
Too quickly unraveling to what’s inside
Longing to hear, ‘No longer hide.’
But I am too much in this.
Too practiced at pretending
My heart does not exist
So what I do not have, how can I miss?
All things being equal
I don’t want to see a sequel
Of the same story I’ve known and lived.
But I won’t give.”
“Like Jack Horner
In the corner
Don’t go nowhere
What do I care
Are worth waitin’ for
-“Aint’ Misbehavin'” by Fats Waller, Harry Brooks and Andy Razaf
“The way your smile just beams
The way you sing off key
The way you haunt my dreams
No, no, they can’t take that away from me
The way you hold your knife
The way we danced till three
The way you’ve changed my life
No, no they can’t take that away from me
No they can’t take that away from me”
-“They Can’t Take That Away From Me” by George and Ira Gershwin
“Oh the heart beats in its cage”
-“Heart In A Cage” by The Strokes
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