Maggie’s Pick 7.13.2015: Magical Monday: “Magic Man” by Heart

NaPoWriMo #11: “Double Sharp” by Maggie McGinity

I noticed myself doing something over and over, so I decided to write a poem about it.

“Double Sharp
By Maggie McGinity

Off and on, on and off
Under and over double sharp
A round, a heart, a chain, a braid
Cheaply worn and cheaply made
A glitter, a glimmer, a hope, a wish
No one questions, but notices
Switch and switch, around, but which?
Ah. There is the hitch.”

Quote:

“I knew such a woman once,
She gave me everything.
Her love like a soft riot singing,
She knew how to shine.”
-Scott Hastie

Maggie’s Pick 11.15.2014: “Crazy On You” by Heart

Ending the Crazy theme on a high note. Now I have to figure out what I’m going to Pick tomorrow o.O

Anyways. Love this song, want to learn guitar, want to learn the opening solo, want to be able to sing that high with my chest voice. Sigh. Great song.

Maggie’s Pick 10.4.2014: “Hands Down (Acoustic)” by Dashboard Confessional

Ottumwa Pick 2, something I saw the chorus of on a social media site (can’t remember if it was MySpace or FaceBook) many years ago, and it stuck in my brain, but I didn’t actually hear the song until a few years later.

I’m not sure I’ve ever lived the whole song, at least not in terms of the many specific details that are in there. But the chorus, it’s the chorus:

“My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me
So won’t you kill me, so I die happy
My heart is yours to fill or burst, or break or bury
Or wear as jewelry, whichever you prefer”

I really like the ending, too.

New original song: “Common Ground” by Maggie McGinity

Hi everyone! I’m sorry I didn’t post this song yesterday. Last night time got away from me, and I was presented with many unique opportunities which I had to meet. I didn’t get a chance to record this until today.

It should be noted that I wrote this song in late August and early September 2014. It should also be known that in the chorus, “walking round and round” means walking around the same place all the time, but never running into each other, and also means skirting an issue. It does not mean walking around campus together (that’s post-song).

Lyrics:

Verse 1:
Never is a harsh word
But a true word
And this’ll never be the same
This life guarantees no rewards
It’s not a silly game
But you’ve got rules now
I’ve got rules too
Nowadays it seems our lives
Can’t find a way to coincide
So tell me what to do

Chorus:
Hope’s up
But communication’s down
Look for our memory
In my lost and found
Feels like these days
We’re just walking
Round and round and round
Our common ground

V2:
Never is a harsh word,
But a safe word,
For a pact is not a poem
Now I’m finding
As I’m moving forward,
A house is not a home
And there are rules here
That I can’t know
Nowadays it seems our lives
Are just a silly compromise
So should I let you go?

Chorus

Bridge:
It’s funny
Connections that you make
Connections that you break
And the rejections that you just can’t take
When will there come a day
When we can just be ok
With what we’ve got
And what we’re not?

Verse 3:
Never is a harsh word
But a true word
And this’ll never be the same
This heart guarantees no rewards
It’s not a silly game
But I’m a fool now
You’re a fool too
Nowadays it seems our lives
Are anything just to decide
So tell me what to do

Chorus

Outro:
Where can it be?
Can it be found?
Our common ground

In case you were wondering, the answer to the question at the end of Verse 2 is no. Definitely, definitely no. But some things you don’t know until you know 🙂

‘Still/Beating’ (new poem) + CGYOOMH ‘Fluorescent Adolescent’ and ‘The Best I Ever Had’

So for this installment of the poorly acronymed “Can’t Get You Out of My Head” poem series, I focused on these two songs, which share the line “The best I ever had/The best you ever had.”

Fluorescent Adolescent/The Best I Ever Had

Unlike these songs, however, I tend not to focus on the best I ever had, because even that isn’t all that fabulous. Instead, I tend to worry and daydream about missed opportunities and moments and crushes that I, with my inability to read a room, find out about years after they’ve dissipated. These are the worst, the would’ve, could’ve, should’ve’s. At least with what has been, you can hold the ashes in your hand and know. But what could’ve been? Well, you can read about it. Enjoy!

“Still/Beating

Looking for reasons to walk away
What were you afraid of?
Now in that moment you want to stay
Knowing what it was made of.

Secrets lost and secrets keep
Themselves in their own order.
Burrow down, don’t make a peep,
Bonding on their border.

These atoms and
These nuclei
They won’t leave me alone.
We are all made
Of the same days,
The building blocks of bones.

And in my mind
I find
A should’ve: Should’ve
Been alone.

Little looks and lifelong locks
Strangers for the catching.
Took off long before the talks
Now back, missing the matching.

These brushes and
This backsliding
I’m loathe to call my own.
We are all made
Of the same days,
Throw us towards the throne.

And in my mind
I find
A would’ve: Would’ve
If I’d known.

Fears and years don’t stay together,
As new togethers meet and merge.
Old longings are told with tones of weather
Casual as personnel purge.

But your blue sky is my blizzard,
Your record high my frost,
A cold-hearted, emotional lizard,
No heat within my skin embossed.

In my mind
I find
The best could’ve: Could’ve
Just stayed blind.

To never know this truth
And feel it root
In my still/beating
Heart.”

So many quotes!!!:

“The best you ever had
Is just a memory and those dreams
But as daft as they seem
Not as daft as they seemed
My love when you dream them all”
-“Fluorescent Adolescent” by the Arctic Monkeys

“Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better”

“And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can’t take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You’re always right ”

“Now I’m here to stay
Love can be so boring
What was it you wanted?
Could it be I’m haunted?”
-“The Best I Ever Had(Grey Sky Morning)” by Vertical Horizon

‘Caustic Comment’ (new poem) + ‘Can’t Get You Out Of My Head’

Light song, dark poem?

Light song, dark meaning?

No, from that video, seems like light song, light meaning, one meaning. Not like this poem. This poem is … well, I’ll let you decide what this poem is for yourself. Enjoy!

“Caustic Comment
By Maggie McGinity

I want to leave and sleep
Let my heart its secrets keep
(Let my heart its secrets keep
Awhile longer)

I see where this is going.
I know the ways of showing
Up
The soulmates have
In the lives of the people I love
(And every day, that love
Is growing stronger)

These troubles I tomorrowed.
Like b’loved books I borrowed,
Support of their pre-marked spines
Could never stay mine
(A silent scream as my heart
Takes me hostage)

So let me leave and sleep
Silence, distance keep
I know enough to see when I have lost it.
(I had no way of knowing
What the cost is)”

Quotes:

“I just can’t get you out of my head
Boy, its more than I dare to think about”
-“Can’t Get You Out Of My Head” by Kylie Minogue

“I think Hell is something you carry around with you. Now somewhere you go.” – Neil Gaiman

“And if you couldn’t be loved, the next best thing was to be let alone.” – L.M. Montgomery

‘The Everyday Riddle’ (new poem)

I have a cold, and it’s making me overdramatic. Or I’ve had a life and it’s making me hurt and frantic. Or I was just an emo kid and I never grew out of it. You decide. These words you haven’t heard have their own life.

“The Everyday Riddle
By Maggie McGinity

I don’t know why someone would want to
Come to this tomb,
This wreck of a room,
Where the flowers feel as dead as their master.

I don’t know why someone would dare to
Step foot inside
Where dreams go to die,
Failing faster and faster

I don’t know why someone would wake up
This numb and tattered core
I don’t know what all your words
Are for

I don’t know why I walk like a coffin,
Killing others’ fantasies often.
Why worry about losing my breath
When half my days I feel like death?

I don’t know why someone would come to
This well-lit grave,
Poor-promise-paved,
Where flowers look as dead as their master.

I don’t know why someone would enter
This storm and strife.
All good things in life
Can’t last here.”

Answer my quote?

“What is he that builds stronger than either the mason, the shipwright, or the carpenter?”
-“Hamlet,” by William Shakespeare

‘Forget my Heart'(new poem)

It’s Sunday where I live and I’m still allowed to complain for the next couple of hours. So….

Let me tell you a bit about my love life:

It’s currently nonexistent, although if you’ve read some of my previous poems, you’ll know it was once very much existent, and now is usually mostly not.

Except for me, all of the girls in my friend group are in long-term committed relationships, so I tend to focus a lot on their relationships. I hang out with a lot of couples simply because I’m friends with a lot of couples. Take, for example, Nick and Sarah. When I spend time alone with them, it usually goes something like this:

In fact, it’s generally not much better when I hang out with a lot of couples:

Sometimes I get sick of feeling odd and hang out with my single male friends, which I also have a lot of. I also focus on their relationships, but in different ways. They think I’m some kind of relationship guru and come to me asking for advice on pursuing certain girls simply because I have a second X chromosome where they have a Y. I think that some of them are cute or handsome or charming and subsequently develop pointless crushes on them. Pointless because they’ve friend-zoned me.

This is frustrating, obviously, but I never try to get out of it because I’m incredibly shy, insecure, and afraid of ruining friendships. Also, this:

So, being the passive-aggressive woman that I am, I wrote a poem about it instead. I started working on this two weeks ago and finished it a few minutes ago. Here’s hoping one of my friends reads it. Enjoy!

“Forget my Heart
By Maggie McGinity

I’m tired of being passed up for the past,
Deemed unfit for the future,
Being pressed upon that my presence
In the present
Isn’t useful.

Do not seek me in heart’s folly,
Do not page me in love’s games.
I am not a genie jolly
With solutions for your pain.

Do not tell me of the girls
Whom you want to make your world.
Don’t show me your hopes and dreams
For mine are not as they seem.

I’m tired of being the ears which hear,
‘Those eyes so blue, those eyes so clear.’
I don’t want to hear them mooning ‘she’s the one’
When all my mooning days are done.

I’m tired of being a point of deflection
A shoulder to sob on ’cause you can’t get their affection
A habitat for hope’s resurrection
To point you in the right direction

When the ‘right’ direction is away from me.
It’s childish hurt and jealousy
But it won’t win me, wait and see.
I’ll grin and bear it, hopelessly.

Your happiness is what I want
Though it is not myself whom you hunt.
I’ll smile at you, though I know better,
Forget my heart, and say, ‘Go get her.'”

Alternate titles include “I’m pretty, too. Why don’t you like me?”, “The Friend Zone: Not Just for Guys Anymore,”  “‘And then, do you know, Monsieur Marius, I believe I was a little in love with you,'” and “The Poem with Five Names.”

Quotes:

“Without me, his world will go on turning.
A world that’s full of happiness that I have never known.”
-“On My Own,” from the musical “Les Miserables”